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lying on my bed, wishing, wanting to be with you. as the days go by, i love you much more. as the hours pass, i miss you even more. i cannot live without you, cos without you, i'm weak. i miss how you kiss me at night. I miss the way we sleep, like there's no sunrise but I never told you. What I should have said? No, I never told you. I just held it in. And now, I miss everything about you. Can't believe that I still want you after all the things we've been through. I see your eyes everytime I close mine. You make it hard to see where I belong to when I'm not around you.

as a nineteen, i knew that fairytale doesn't exist, at all.

i woke up everyday to pretend that everything is okay and wear those smiles that i put on everytime i put my foot outside the house gate. i want everything to be fine, as usual, but in my head i know that i have to face every obstacles of life.

i'm glad to have my friends alround cos' i know, my family doesn't care at all. maybe they did, but i don't see any sign or feel anything from them. even though i have the most wonderful friends, i still feel lonely inside. there's something missing and i don't even know what that was.

Waffle's wedding is coming and i got a lot of things to do. I put my priority on her first.

I believe in miracle. I believe that someday, everything's gonna change for the better. Everything takes time and now, i feel that i don't have any much time left to change everything.

i'm sick of being sick all the time. feeling restless every single minute. why can't i be normal like other people? why must i act normal infront of everybody? Waffle said i'm different. She said that i was strong enough to face all these things that i face in my life where as i'm only nineteen. nineteen, being a teenager, the oldest teenager, i already feel like an adult for me to face everything. but in my heart, i still wanna be a kid. i don't enjoy my life that much and that is the truth. don't say that i'm not grateful to stand on Earth. I am grateful that i was born but why do i have to face all these things? well, it shouldn't be a question, i know. it just happen.

they say things happen for a reason, but i don't see any truthful one reason why it became like this. if only...

fairytale exists.

Sudiana Teng ♥

nine-teen,
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Many people walk in and out of our lives, but only true friends leave footprints on your heart.

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