Saturday, October 31, 2009
 hah, being sarcastic is the last thing that i would be to people. but well, i might smile often but my heart would say all those sarcasm. work for the whole two week already made me tired of work! i mean, attachment. and i know, i'm gonna hang out with whoever want to hang with me tomorrow. and it is a must. i need a day out! i even had to work just now and it's a SATURDAY! oh my, and yes, i only have a day to enjoy myself. it won't even be a day. MONDAY is when it starts all over again. argh, sometimes i feel that i shouldn't hang out tomorrow as i will be tired by the end of the day and i might skipped monday. but, i promised myself, i won't. i already missed like one and a half day for just two weeks of attachment. i'll be dead, seriously, if my IA advisor would found out. maybe the supervisors would keep it well? talking bout supervisors, my so called "colleagues" are looking great to me but i know they do talk about me. they were exchanging whispers when i looked at them but it couldn't be me just alone right? i guessed so. all i'm thinking now is to finish my attachment for another three months or so. maybe after that i'll go to poly for my diploma? seriously, i don't know whether i could make it. besides, i do not even know how to apply?! yes, i'm so stupid in all these stuffs but let's see where life will bring me. love,  Friday, October 30, 2009 Everything’s cool, yeah It’s all gonna be okay, yeah And I know, Maybe I’ll leave and laugh about it someday But not today, no Cause I don’t feel so good I’m tangled up inside My heart is on my sleeve Tomorrow is a mystery to me (Chorus) And it might be wonderful It might be magical It might be everything I’ve waited for, A miracle Oh, but even if I fall in love again with someone else It could never be the way I loved you Letting you go is making me feel so cold, yeah And I’ve been trying to make believe it doesn’t hurt But that makes it worse, yeah See, I’m a wreck inside My tongue is tied and my whole body feels so weak The future may be all I really need (Chorus) And it might be wonderful, yeah It might be magical It might be everything I’ve waited for, A miracle Oh, but even if I fall in love again with someone else It could never be the way I loved you Like a first love, the one and only true love wasn’t directly all over my taste, yeah I loved you like you loved me Like something pure and holy Like something that can never be replaced And it was wonderful, It was magical, It was everything I’ve waited for, A miracle And if I should ever fall in love again with someone new Oh, It could never be the way No, It will never be the way I loved you for you boyfriend, love. Tuesday, October 27, 2009  i'm so hopeful as what i've heard from farh, she was being bullied by her colleagues. what a poor thing that girl is. sigh, i'm so sorry for you dear. it's okay, just hang in there. this will all be over soon enough and we'll be graduating in less than half a year. yaaaaa, easy for me to say it but i just skipped a day for a stupid reason. its already past midnight and i need to go to sleep. yes, sooooooonnnnn. 5.30am and i'll be halfly dead like a zombie waking up from it's grave. sigh. attachment, please be over soon. Saturday, October 24, 2009  when the dinosaur and the pony meets. daily routine:
yes, i'm freggin tired. i'm lacking of sleep. and yes, i'd prefer going to school than work. i'm missing my friends and all the things i used to do waking up late and sleeping in the morning. my blog layout looks weird and i know i need to change it. ONE DAY LAH K? haha, i don't trust my "one day" word. Thursday, October 15, 2009  ME: mummy, why is the barney coloured green? MUM: oh, there's no purple in the colour pencil box. -_____- if i were her, i won't colour it any other colour other than purple. haha, yes, i'm so cerewet. i was feeling so sad the first thing of the fifteen. basically, it was my official second year anniversary with him and he's in some forest with his army mates having their five days field camp, and the worst is they could not bring any handphones with them. it's been 5 days since i got to hear anything from Yoshi and wow, how sad could that be? and Yoshi, you owe me a lot on my birthday. class raya-ing was cancelled. it really wasn't being cancelled but everyone kept quiet about it. it was really a need to go out for me to cheer myself up since Yoshi was in camp and the outing was cancelled. one more thing, attachment is just next week and i should enjoy myself.    thanks khai and hamli for making my day. and Yoshi, please eh, don't be jealous, they're my classmates trying to cheer me up while you're away. awww, i miss Yoshi. *sobs*   and sumpah the roti john cheese chicken is nice. yes, i want more. =.= see, i'm enjoying it. Wednesday, October 14, 2009 i'm not sure what's wrong with myself. and i'm not sure i'm feeling like that either. there's so much to explain or it might be none. maybe i'm just being paranoid -_- got the results for my attachment starting next week, and it would be...... keppel logistics. it's at gul circle so i guessed it should be near tuas or even at tuas. that should be it. i won't deny that i do love my sister but i hate her at times too. i do understand she's having some financial problems as she has 2 kids to support but do she have to wear all my clothes everytime? ok, firstly, i don't mind if she wears my clothes but not all the new ones. i would get really frustrated but she would say that i'm stingy. secondly, why does she have to wear what i need to wear the same day or even the following day? sigh. it's getting worse staying in this creepy house. dad's cool but mom has been nagging at me most of the time. nagged that i didn't do any chores at home. well, yes, i admit. but that doesn't mean i have to do most of the work as i'm rotting at home most of the days. i want to start attachment soon enough even though it's a bit far for me. i do not want to stay home and listen to all that. ALL I WANT IS SOME TIME FOR MYSELF BEFORE MY ATTACHMENT. CAN'T ANYONE UNDERSTAND THAT SIMPLE ENGLISH? *sobs* Monday, October 12, 2009 honestly, i'm addicted to cafe world in facebook. i don't know why but i think there's something that makes me addicted to it. i think i know why. -__________- basically, i'm rotting at home these holidays. and yes, i have to go to school tomorrow for my attachment briefing. all i want to know is where i'm posted to. my class advisor only knows that i live in yishun but she doesn't know that i've moved to henderson. i was wondering maybe i could get near yishun but another thing is IF i get it near yishun, i'll be dead. not totally but hell, how far is that? well, singapore is small but the travel time, oh my. Thursday, October 8, 2009 let's start with how my life is at this new house at henderson. well, honestly, i felt that it's comfortable to live with my own family after 5 or 7 years staying with someone else. i don't really remember exactly how long it was but it was way better staying with own family. now, i do really feel like a family. haaah, like finally having a homepage? my dad and my second sister has been really nice to me since but my mom is still the same, i guessed. i don't know why with the sudden change. i'm confused myself, haaah, as long as they are happy lor. one more thing, my place is a hell of many mosquitoes. i can't see it but i can count the bites everywhere all over my body! sigh. stupid nyamuk, not enough ah eat people's blood one time? all the mosquitoes should be all gendooot gendoot. LOL. one more thing that concerns me staying here is that i don't feel any freedom at all. all of my friends are staying far away from me and this place here freaks me out so whenever i go out, always will come back home quite early. oh, i don't even go out that much. how i wish i had some magic power that could teleport me back and forth. and i want to watch (500) days of summer! it's a four star movie everywhere. wow, and i wanted their soundtrack CD for my birthday. and oh, next sunday, i turn 18. (^-^)v toodles~ Friday, October 2, 2009 yesssssssssaaaaaaaaaaa, boyfriend's out of camp. and seriously, i'm craving for cheese fries and zinger burger. i just do not know why i am not craving for their chicken itself. i just don't i guess. children's day yesterday, what shall i say about it? going to queensway shopping center with farhana was great even though i don't have enough money to go shopping like a bunch of rich people. things i said that i think might make farhana irritate:
yes, i put a 5 bucks deposit on a blouse that cost 23 bucks. thanks to her that i get 5 bucks discount on it. wah, even though staying at home infront of my lappy, i just can't stand it when my 1 year old nephew cry and cry and cry. irritating siaaaaaaa. can't go out, no money. can't stay home, noisy. so, what must i do? tell me.  ♥ thanks aunty nana, haha. my face is so bulat. |
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